[Her surprise makes him pause for a moment in turn. He'd felt like it was... almost obvious? At least some of it. It takes him a moment to start again, voice not quite as steady as before.]

Because it's hard to trust my judgment.

[It's impossible to draw a distinction between him not trusting his judgment or anyone else, so he just casts a wide net and drags the whole thing into it. This week, last week... this is a place where most of his skills feel like they hinder more than help, and where he's stumbled more than he's stepped forward to lead.

He'd still been new to it, back at home. He knows he'd gotten ahead of himself -- but back then, he hadn't been able to help it. Maybe he can help it now.]